Stress

I was stressing lately coming back from a great vacation. My work brings me stress, I even stress on the stress the day before I'm back! So my wife asks me what's wrong and I explain and she replies, "Just party through the whole thing!" And I think about it, somehow the idea brings me much comfort. With that we took several bonghits and made wine coolers and cranked up Spearhead and danced the night away. Not a bad Monday night, after surviving the first day back at work in over a week.

Swaggg Food Great Herb!

You know you have a problem when you buy so much herb that it forces your family to shop for groceries at places like Grocery Outlet and Food 4 Less. Instead of the wholesome organic meals created from our local Coop, we buy frozen pizza and frozen apple pie, chocolate chip cookie dough, whipped cream, and icecream (that's been melted and refrozen) for dessert and we still have money left over for balloons and party favors,...what's the occasion? A new fresh supply of herb delivered. Of course, the delivery charge was built into the 20 DVDs I traded for a garbage bag full of shake and trimmings from this recent harvest. I can't seem to get back to that place where I'm using herb as a medicine, either that or I've been really sick lately, vacations always do this to me. What does one like to do on vacation? Stay high, try to get higher, and drink pitchers, yes that's right pitchers of Green Tea. Alcohol is right there at my back door, luring me every chance she gets, but alcohol brings out the worse in me accordingly to my wife who has joined the circus of getting high, cranking up Bob Marley or Michael Franti and dancing silly with balloons and party favors everywhere. This morning, it looks like the day after New Years, I'm up early wondering how I will be able to deal with the garbage bag full of shake and what method should I begin to get high with. Smoking wears off but accomplishes the task right away, making Bhang takes time but can last well into the later part of the day. If this is the toughest decision that I will make today then it looks like a good day.

Give Thanks

Thanksgiving,...such a wonderful time to get loaded.
4 bonghits, a 22 oz of tasty ale, half bottle of wine, two Tylenols with codine,...there is much to be thankful of,...wah wah wah wah

Teach Your Children Well

A day full of Bhang and Bong Hits ended with a session most notable: I returned from the store with a pint of Ben and Jerrys Phish food, whipped cream, chocolate syrup, and bananas. We split it among the family and by the end of the session, we were all laughing and smiling.

Buddhist Tradition Thickens Parts of the Brain

Buddhist Meditation

Perception

Perception. I was thinking how I've gotten right back into being a regular after spending most of the weekend high on Bhang and coming straight home on a Monday to take bonghits prior to the Bhang kicking in. My wife comments, since you have been taking the 5-HTP and not drinking you have been real mellow and pleasant to be around. I replied, I was feeling like I was back on the habit of getting high all the time thanks to the recent harvest and freshness of the herb, and that while I'm not drinking it certainly takes an effort. Cannabis is a drug, a habit but when I use it and get high I see it differently. I see it as good medicine for my soul, while high I'm not depressed, I feel grateful, I'm not thinking about work, I'm being present, I'm not seeing my kids as misbehaving undisciplined ones, I see unbound playfulness. Perception.

Forever

You know occasionally, I will hear a song in a way that I had never heard it before. It's not that the song changed. It just seems to hit you right at a moment in time in which the song speaks volumes to you. Bob Dylan did it to me in my 20's and Bob Marley seems to get me in my 30's.

We'll be forever loving Jah
We'll be forever loving Jah
Some they say see them walking up the street
They say we are going wrong to all the people we meet
But we won't worry, we won't shed no tears
We found a way to cast away the fears
Forever Yeah!
We'll be forever loving Jah
We'll be forever
We'll be forever loving Jah
Forever yes and forever
We'll be forever loving Jah, there'll be no end
So old man river don't dry for me
I have got a running stream of love you see
So no matter what stages, oh stages, stages
Stages they put us thru we'll never be blue
No matter what rages, oh rages, changes.
Rages they put us thru, we'll never be blue
We'll be forever yeah! We'll be forever loving Jah
We'll be forever We'll be forever loving Jah
Forever and ever and forever
Cause there is no end
Cause only a fool lean up on, lean upon His own misunderstanding
And what has been hidden from the wise and the prudent,
Been revealed to the babe and the suckling
In every thing, in every way I say
We'll be forever loving Jah
We'll be forever
We'll be forever loving Jah
Cause just like a tree planted planted by the river of water
That bringeth forth bringeth forth, fruits in due season
Every thing in life got its purpose
Find its reason in every season, forever Yeah!
We'll be forever loving Jah
We'll be forever
We'll be forever loving Jah
On and on and on
We'll be forever loving Jah
-Bob Marley

Truckin'

Buffalo News - Trucker caught at Peace Bridge with load of pot

Inhale

The first time I got high I was in elementary school around my 6th grade year. I stole some shake and papers from my stepdad and had another student roll it up for Jesse and I. We went into the bushes and smoked the whole joint during recess! The irony of course is that neither one of us knew that you had to inhale, and coupled with the swaggy shake, we could only pretend that we were high. Then, during my eighth grade year my friend and I were riding on this float during a local Christmas parade. The float was sponsored by some church group that I did not belong to but it was an opportunity to ride in a parade which was big by my a standards,...back then. SO another friend rides his bike up to the float and asks us if we wanted to get high, my friend and I jumped right off the float, just like that! This friend had the connection, his mom was a housecleaner who cleaned this one house that had a mason jar full of kind purple bud. I know the details because we later went on to breaking into the house (thanks to his mom's keys) and taking herb (Bad Karma). Well we all went off and smoked a joint, I was boasting that Marijuana doesn't effect me but I had learned how to inhale since my 6th grade experience. No sooner than I said those words, I was overcome by the realization of being extremely high! In fact I kind of panicked because I wasn't coming down anytime soon and the parade had long since finished. I remember zoning out for hours and having weird sensations over time, it moved too fast as I moved too slow. Needless to say, from that point on like most drugs, I was hooked and the next day I was looking for a repeat experience.
Last night I got home and did the usual, bonghits, and herbal cocktails. Herbal cocktails of Kava Kava, Skullcap, St John's Wort, California Poppy, and daddy's little pill 5-HTP. It's a weird high because the herbs play with your brain just as the herb. I found myself being chased and chasing my boys all around the house, being playful and naked. Being high really opens my heart and gives me the ability to stay present, laugh and play. Too bad there is a war over this wonderful herb.

A Beautiful Mind

I've been teased again to go to Amsterdam. This time it came in the form of an email from my wife with the message, "anytime you want to go- you are free!" $417 Round Trip! It's hard to justified the overall expense of a 5-7 day trip. I day dream throughout work, more stress, more leaning towards going, I think of it as pilgrimage an homage of sorts, a great must do in one's lifetime, another stamp in the passport documenting worldly travels, and in my case being a first timer an introduction to Europe, perhaps an excellent opportunity to create a documentary of the trip! Jahjahfue Visits Amsterdam (Feb 2006) . I even go as far as justifying it as a wonderful thing to look forward to and pull me through the school year. Whenever I stress I think about the scene from Cheech and Chong, where they are in Amsterdam ordering up ganja salad! I visualize, ..........................Then I get real high, light an insense and think,... Look I've hot boxed this entire computer room with an old school hand rolled spliff,...I'm chillin' to some phat Herbie Handcock (Nice, 21 July 1971),..Sweeeeeet I don't need Amsterdam, I can create one right now at a fraction of the costs and wait there is more,...I get to sleep in my own bed snuggling up to my wife and kids! Now with the money I saved by talking myself out of going I will buy another 300GB harddrive and continue downloading,....

Denver voters OK marijuana measure

I can't believe that it's finally happening!!

Fresh Herb

Yesterday I had a choice, to call my main man and say hey let's meet or to accept the dwindling herb supply and when it's out it's out. I thought about the time of year,...Harvest time and my man grows his own each year, I couldn't resist. The herb was fresh and certainly un-keefed. I joke about that because when you get to the stage of puffing the same herb all year long, it doesn't seem to work as well as something new, as a result I start thinking that the bud has been keefed,...how else can I smoke 10 consecutive bonghits without getting that high? This herb was new and different, not as dense as the usual but still intriguing. After two hits, I noticed a prolonged headrush, but then I wasn't really that high, it was the classic creeper, it gave me energy and a head high that lasted much longer than the usual.
Then out of excitement or something like that, I decided to hit it again right before bed, I fell right back into the same pattern of behavior, did I need it? no, but it was just too good not to. The herb left me with more energy and instead of going to bed I watched a fascinating Swiss documentary on Tibetan doctors (The Knowledge of Healing), I then took a hot bath and finally went to bed. Yummmm fresh Northern California herb, it doesn't get much better.