Brownie maddness

I basically made a pan full of brownies last Thursday and within a week I have successfully devoured the entire pan, not to mention the left over butter which goes well with toast in the morning. I took a BT today for the first time in over a week, no biggy, just didn't last so I made some bhang. I love THC and especially the ingestion, the prolong high, the perm a grin, everything! I've been dependant on Visiene(sp?), which is weird but fun when I can be so stoned but appear so sober, especially around family and people I work with, it's my little secret, the continual good mood.
Alcohol has taken a back seat unless I'm jiving on ginsing. It's a downer, I get stupid, not like I'm highly functional stoned out all the time, but at least it fits with my constitution. Hot baths rock, simple whole grain dinners, stoney music, and THC,...mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Ganja Food For the Holidays

Tuesday through Sunday morning with family for the holidays. I won't go into the oddities of my family but it's really a love hate thing that if not intoxicated you will go mad!!!!
I averaged each day
two pot brownies
three beers/wine

Biggest total:
three glasses of wine two brownies two 12 oz beers and one chocolate stout 22 oz!

Highest high:
Getting an ipod with the Rolling STones doing SIster Morphine and I was way baked on two late night brownies, chillin' the night before Christmas in musical bliss (just to come down off the 5 pm pint of coffee slam!).

And a sober day with Skye and I skiing for the first time together,..roots!

Mellow Monday

Packing up for the trip to Oregon. Trying out the potency of the brownies, they are creeper, strong and long lasting.

3 pot brownies
4 bts
margarita
12 oz beer

Pot brownie o'clock

A quart of mate
3 cups of coffee
ginsing tonic

Two tall double rum and cokes
three beers
7 bts
Bhang
shot of sake (for Bubba)
Pot brownie mix,...licking the bowl

Mega Hippie Speedball!!

Way productive, way high

Like a salmon who makes it to the ocean and says, fuck,...now what?!?! Vacation is like that for me, I need routine or I'm just on a run to stay altered.

AM: three cups of mate, large coffee, and the ginsing solution

PM:
3 glasses of red wine
22 oz beer
4 bts
bhang

Highlight: Being on a "Hippie Speedball" (Bhang and Ginsing) and going to a potluck with very cool people. We sang a song and ohmed before we ate, the techno music faded into us all drumming the night away. And did I mention that they all were parents from the Charter school I work at?!?!

No work for two weeks!

First night of vacation. I worked out after work which decreased my desire to consume but my dear wife was in a festive mood and had the bong ready to go when I arrived home.

double tall rum and coke
double tall Margarita
8 bts

Unfortunately, I pretty much passed out prior to the kids going to sleep, despite my wife's desire for me to stay up.

Too much of everything is just enough

Staff party day:

3 shots of tequilla
1 jagermeister
3 beers
1 rum and coke
4 bts

What I hate about our staff partys is that no one really partys, instead the Christian coilition, just bad trips you after one beer, "Are you O.K. to drive?!" "It sounds like your speech is slurred, is someone else taking you home?" It's so bad that:
a. I went and had a beer and a shot prior to even getting to the restuarant where we had the party.
b. I went with a couple of cool employees to the bar section of the restuarant, like we were sneaking out of the party to quickly slam tequilla shots (this took place three times).

Now I've heard that if you are under stress you get drunker quicker, I found that incorrect,...I think you drink more when you are stressed out.

And the drive home was topped off with a beer between my legs. My boss called (just as I thought we were done with the party and comments) and said, "Are you O.K.? you just passed me like I was standing still!" I wanted to say, well the G force helps the beer go down quicker, but I did my best not to slurr and not to sound in too good of a mood, "Oh I'm just going with the flow!" Kind of like my own inside joke that was contextually appropriate!

muscle in plastic

Another stressful day. Somewhat affected by the night before... ie; the vikes and the beers. Plus there was a TON of work that needed to get done. But by the end of the day I made up my mind and went to the liquor store.

tonights consumption:

two 22 oz sapporos
one 12 oz singha

I'm tired.

good night and have fun!

Greenlight

Wednesday:
22 oz microbrew
12 oz Red Hook
6 BTs

Still feeling worn out and not up to par.
Highlight: Dear wife giving the green light to persue the green card!

Frayed Wednesday

It's Wednesday. I'm fried. Tonight was sushi night - very well deserved considering the amount of work I've been pushing out of my brain. Being an artist is hard work some time.

Intake:
Three 22 oz Sappporo's
Two Vicodin

Sad as it may seem one day I'll be able to get back to meditation and yoga as a means of relief. But that is why I started this blog - to see how disgusted I become with myself through my drug consumption, in hopes to quit.

Green Card Anyone?

Board Meeting night = late sober night

22 oz Local beer
4 bts

Notes: I was tired and really didn't feel like using
Highlight:Discovered a local doctor offering marijuana perscriptions along with a local herb bank in the next town over,...hmmmmmmmmmmmm
Stoney moment: trying to get the kids to bed and passing out myself.

Recipe: Bhang
Put fine ground herb in a cup of water and simmer for 10 minutes (making sure you don't evaporate the water completely!) Add fatty milk, I use soymilk at 3 grams of fat, but I think cows milk has more. I supplement with liquid Lecithin (sp?) used for binding bread together, actually a good brain food, it too is fatty and adds to fat which is the THC binding agent. simmer for 15 mins the longer the better as last as it's slow and doesn't evaporate the whole pot (you can tell this has happened before!). You can add fresh ginger, tea bags, etc,...to spice it up or develop the straight up taste which isn't that bad. Last thing is to strain it if you are into it, personally herb doesn't bother me but straining helps with drinking it. I eye about a joints worth of herb but I must warn you, it works and when you think about it, think about what it would be like to smoke this much instantly because that's how it feels. For the effort though I say joint minimum. The high comes on slow but can really rock you for about three-four hours. First time around try it at night, but as you become more experienced, try it first thing in the morning and you'll feel high way through lunch!

I'll pay you for a hamburger on Tuesday...

Today has been a very concentrated day. I won't go into the details as they are irrelevant. Let me just say this. My eyes are puffy and they feel like they are about to bleed - pressure in my temples staring at the computer all day. After producing a bulk of work that surpassed the expectations of my client and myself - I didn't want yoga or meditation. I wanted to change my channel completely.

Here's Today's Intake:
MORNING
Caffiene - One pot of green tea
Caffiene - One cup of coffee
Caffiene - One 32oz Raspberry Nestea

EVENING
Alcohol - Two 22oz Sapporo
Vicodin - Two

Monday morning coming down

Monday
Got home early
7 BTs
22 0z micro
12 oz red hook
1/2 bottle of red wine

High light: went to check out falling stars with kids, they fell asleep by the time we got there, and it was cloudy anyhow!
Stoney moment: Hearing James Taylor sing Do me wrong right right just don't let me be lonely tonite, as,....Doobie wrong doobie right.

Monday 12.13.04

Caffeine in the form of one pot of green tea (approx 3 mugs)
Caffeine - 1 mug of black tea

No Alcohol
No pills

Weekend abuse

Friday night I drank two 24oz dynamite custom brews called (Jessicas Jewel Honey Ale) it fucking ROCKED!!!
Two Vicodin
A half bottle of wine
I woke up with a wicked hangover this AM. Took two Aleeve and went back to bed until 9:30.

Saturday I drank:
Two Sapporos Large
One Fosters Lager
A half of a Mai Tai
Wine
Some shit called SPARKS which contains 6% Alcohol, Gurana, caffeine, ginseng and some other shit.
More wine....and some Aleeve so I hopefully won’t get a hangover. As of this moment it’s 12:37 and I’m still nursing some red wine.

Sunday:
I began with 1 Vicodin
5-6 Glasses of champagne
1 glass of red wine
2 more vicodin
1 bottle of Sake