Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Meningitis Rebirth

So I got viral Meningitis, Which lasted 8 days, since then I had a downgraded headache and back soreness for four weeks. While it was intense, I was taking a regular dose of highpowered pain killers, which they later switched to a non-narcotic form. Prior to that I was taking the heavy duty medication, it would make me sick, so I would smoke herb, which would solve the nausea but then send me right to the moon, not to mention tickling my brain and having knee wobbling head rushes. I read, one symptom is "an altered state of consciousness or other neurological deficits may be present depending on the severity of the disease." I'm sure I hit that one, because I feel like I died and have been reborn,.... and not in a Christian way! I'm not sure how to express what I feel and how it felt, It's just that sometimes when Mother Nature kicks your ass, you start making deals with the great spirit, and you realize your hidden potential, and you evaluate what got you there. You die. You start over, better and wiser. You don't have to wait for the end of your life to do this.

Monday, May 08, 2006

Don't Try

Circumnavigating to the next reachable euphoria. Not knowing when to drop anchor into the dark murky depths of my mind. Codeine and Absinthe beautifully dance together. Its a symphony. A perfectly lit room at just the right temperature. Nothing matters but this feeling as I lay back lightly. There's nowhere I need to go. And there's nothing I need to do. The best thing is, I don't even need to try. It's all here and it's all now.

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Inside out

Weeks of pain management without work has left me feeling reflective and introspective. I'm unsure if the virus has left my body, the virus has transformed itself into something larger than it really is. The virus is a messenger feeding my head with deep thoughts. How can I know that I'm better if I do not allow myself to stay sober?