After a weekend of being high, Monday morning brought me much introspection. On Saturday, I drank some poppy tea and took some ginsing tonic, Sunday I ate ganja butter all day while drinking tea, ginsing tonic and about three shot of jagermeister. It boils down to not being able to achieve that blissful feeling without mass consumption, and when I'm not consuming I'm grouchy as hell and not fun to be around. I've lost the "balance" picture, and have the abusive relationship. It's odd but I'm ready for a change,...an action plan,..to get out of this alive. Transitions are a part of life but this seems to be a transition that I'm stuck in. No promises but the simply the desire to get back into balance.